Cloud my day, fog my mind. Evaporating myself. Melt into you.
We two – one thing in common: Our emptiness.
I knew no breath, since it was yours.
No movement, since you ran.
Each of your words soaked in my body. Every anaesthetic grew into my skin.
You throw oil while I roll over the fire.
You give me everything, but its not enough.
Let me feel more. Let me burn.
You submerge me, make me lose my breath. It becomes black around me. Dull and quiet. I try to break myself free, let myself be driven by dizziness. The horizon gets wider around me, wider and clearer.
So I hope, I hope that I will not drown.
You do not carry me. It is the water.
You want to mute me. You want me blind.
You want to paralyze me.
Press again, drag and pull me.
So I hope, hope that I don’t suffocate.
You close my eyes so that I lose sight of clarity.
You take off the blindfold. I fade out into emptiness. You take a rope and knot my body. You knot tighter until I become motionless.
So I wait, wait until I can walk again.
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