Fiction: Spring of Life – Chapter V

I felt like the boat had set sail and it had left me behind. I had to jump from the pier into the water and swim as fast as I could to find it. There was no turning back, either I would drown or I would reach her. The next morning was supposed to be…

Soul Talk: Toxic danger – Lauras Story

Interview with laura (alias). Text: MASHA A toxic relationship is an unhealthy relationship that requires a lot of energy. I know it, I was in one. I met him in Paris, but he was from Berlin. After two months he invited me to move in with him. So we planned and organized everything together and…

Thoughts: Back then when we had dreams

Funny how naive we were. We had dreams, goals, plans. We were so convinced of it. Do a trip around the world with the old VW bus. Only with a tent and a backpack. To be independent, to live freedom – for the day. To hitchhike when money is tight, set up a tent somewhere…

Soul Talk: Why are we growing apart?

In the best case, a couple is a unit, a team or a symbiosis. Together, they manage any emerging crisis according to the motto: “What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger”. But what we should not forget is that a couple still consists of two individuals. Between children, work and household tasks, the partner sometimes…

Soul Talk: Toxic Love

Some people are familiar with such relationships, some are themselves stuck in one: sometimes we get caught in people who definitely do us no good; a life between closeness and coldness, love and suffering, always at the narrow degree of high flight and deep fall, a roller coaster of emotions, the purest nerve carousel. You…

Soul Talk: Finding happiness with a happiness reasearcher

Whether in religion, spirituality or neuroscience: Happiness is happiness. Even if our ideas and feelings differ, we all long for it. But sometimes happiness seems to have fallen a bit by the wayside. Above all in the wild everyday life, between occupation and partnership. How can one finally become happy again and why does it…

Fiction: Withdrawal

Cloud my day, fog my mind. Evaporating myself. Melt into you.We two – one thing in common: Our emptiness.I knew no breath, since it was yours.No movement, since you ran.Each of your words soaked in my body. Every anaesthetic grew into my skin.

Fiction: Spring of Life – Chapter II

Procrastination: Being trapped in a dream world that prevents us from living our dreams on the real one. My life so far was a steady monochord rhythm, two chords repeating day and night. I always thinking how the song would continue. As I turned my face to look at her on that spring afternoon, I…

Thoughts: I’m naive and I’m fine with it.

I’m naive. Very much. I didn’t notice that before, because I could blame it on my age. There it was still justified. Childlike carelessness. “Yes well, she’s still 17, she’s still learning that,” they said at the time. Meanwhile I’m 27 and it hasn’t got any better. Their head shaking. Always the same. And then…

Fiction: From the fairy tale of fear

She can’t breathe. Crawling to get some air. A rope is wrapped around her throat. She’s trying to break from it. With every breath she feels the narrowness. The pulse stops as the rope tightens. Millions of insects crawling and spreading all over her body. As he slowly strokes her shoulder, each of her limbs…